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عالبال وعالخاطر

This platform is a safe space for everyone to share their personal experiences with mental health. The expression can be a statement, story, drawing, photo or video. #onmymind is a message of hope, love and support.

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Rainbow Baby

Author: 35 years old female, Lebanon

A Rainbow Baby is a baby born after a miscarriage, stillborn, or neonatal death.

I never knew this term but I lived this experience and no words explain it better.

Like a rainbow...

The Bravest thing I ever did was!!!

The Bravest thing I ever did was!!!

Author: 33 years old male, Lebanon

After so many years of struggles and abuse, I finally had the courage to seek help. And doing so was actually one of the good decisions I have made lately.

Growing up surviving emotional,...

Can't Come Out

Author: F.S, 30 years old male, Lebanon

My whole life I have been interested in women, or I thought I was. When I turned 18 and started to go out and I realized I am gay. All my relationships with women did not work out, I tried to change...

Toxicity

Author: 20 years old female, Lebanon

About 10 months ago I got into a new relationship, and also about that time I was considered overweight. I took a decision to improve my health status and lose weight. However, this decision turned...

الغربة

الكاتب: 22 سنة أنثى ، لبنان

هي المرَّة الأولى التي أقدم فيها على خطوة أعي أنّي لن أفلحَ في بلوغ الهدف المنشود منها، في الحديث عن ما نعيشه هنا، في الغربة. لا أدري إذا هو فشلٌ في وصف الشُّعور أم أنّه تكابرٌ وإصرارٌ في اللّاوعي...

أم بمبيض واحد

أم بمبيض واحد

الكاتب: 36 سنة أنثى ، يمن

ظلت لفترة اعاني من الم اسفل البطن و عدم قدرتي على تحمل وحبس البول من شدة الالم الامر الذي جعلني اذهب لاستشارة الاطباء وقرروا ضرورة عمل عمليه لوجود كيس مصمت في المبيض الايمن ولكن والدي فضل ان اذهب معه...

فقدان أبو أبنتي

فقدان أبو أبنتي

الكاتب: 38 سنة أنثى ، يمن

كان لتربية والدي لي وتنمية شخصيتي القوية واعتمادي على نفسي في امور وحياتي وتحملي مسئولية اخوتي نظرا لسفر والدي الكثير الامر الذي كان له إثر في ان اقتنع باي شخص يكون زوج لي وشريك حياتي كنت اريد شخص...

كدت ان أخسر ابنتي

كدت ان أخسر ابنتي

الكاتب: 32 سنة أنثى ، يمن

عندما ولدت بابنتي الثانية ولادة قيصرية، كنت اخاف على مشاعر ابنتي الكبيرة التي كان عمرها سنتين ونصف. فكنت احاول ان لا امسك ابنتي الصغيرة كثير ولا ابين اهتمامي لها، وبعد اسبوعين من ولادي بها، كانت بحضن...

غربتان في ان واحد

غربتان في ان واحد

الكاتب: 21 سنة، فلسطين

لقد ولدت بعيدًا عن وطني فلسطين، في اليمن. كان علي أن أعيش الغربة في العشرين سنة التي عشتها في اليمن وكسر ذلك شيئًا في داخلي. لم أتمكن أبدًا من مقابلة عائلتي الممتدة، وعيش ثقافتي، وممارسة تقاليدنا...

فقدان رفيقة قلبي

فقدان رفيقة قلبي

الكاتب: 21 سنة، يمن

وقتها شعرت بصدمه كبيره لم أكن اريد تصديق ما حدث مطلقا، بكيت قليلا ثم تمجدت مشاعري، تملكني الشعور بالذنب فأختي لم تكن تريد القدوم الى العرس معي ولكني أصريت، لم أكن أعلم انها ستلقي حتفها في حادث...

فقدانا، أكسبني 20 عاما

فقدانا، أكسبني 20 عاما

الكاتب: 24 سنة، يمن

لطالما كنت انسانة انطوائية في البيت لا املك الكثير من الأصدقاء ولا اخالط العديد من الناس. فكانت صديقتي الوحيدة هي أمي رحمها الله واسكنها الفردوس ولم أكن اتخيل ان أعيش في دنيا لا أجد فيها أمي فكان...

أكبر مخاوفي تتحقق

أكبر مخاوفي تتحقق

الكاتب: 34 سنة أنثى ، يمن

ذهبت الۑ مصر للعلاج من اكتئاب حاد بالعلم انني اعاني من الاكتئاب ثنائي القطبين. ودعت اولادي وزوجي وسافرت ب أسرع وقت كي ارجع لهم وانا بصحه وعافية بدا ينتابني شعور بان زوجي غير معاملته تجاهي فأصبحت...

أحلام اليقظة تنقذ ارواحا

أحلام اليقظة تنقذ ارواحا

الكاتب: 32 سنة، يمن

بدأت الحرب في اليمن في اواخر مارس 2015 وقد كنت باخر ايام شهر الاخير من حملي بابنتي وكنت في بيت اهلي في المنطقة "فج عطان". كانت أكثر ضربات الطيران في جبل عطان الذي كان قريب جدا مننا. في البداية كان...

فاجعة كادت أن تقتل اسرة كاملة

فاجعة كادت أن تقتل اسرة كاملة

الكاتب: 64 سنة، يمن

الحقيقة أن من أصعب الأيام واكثرها رعب ومن أقسى الأيام الذي عشتها هي الأيام الذي تسمموا فيها جميع اولادي الخمسة. وكان لدي بنت صغيرة مازالت تحبو بالأرض والأم حابلة بطفل. تسمموا الخمسة واضطررت لإسعافهم...

قصيدة

الكاتب: Lebanon

ان الأشياء التى اراها مختلفة

ملونةٌ بمشاكل الزمن و الإحباط

كما يرى الحبيب حباً ضائعاً

اذا سألتموني ان اوصفه سأكتفي بالقول:

عيناه تلبسان سواد الليل . كسفينةٍ ضائعة...

A Walk to Hell

Author: 20 years old female, Lebanon

I was once walking with my best friend at 6 AM. It was all fun and stuff until an old man stopped his car and asked me which way should he go. I directed him and answered his request. After that, he...

My Partner is the Devil

My Partner is the Devil

Author: 25 years old female, Lebanon

My current partner and I, did everything we can, defied every single person who told us we cannot be together, just so we can be together. The start of our relationship was amazing, he was so loving....

A Broken Family

A Broken Family

Author: 20 years old female, Lebanon

Being a child of a broken family, emotional trauma has always been a huge part of my personality. Family who was supposed to be the first line of defense against anything had members who made me live...

Robbery

Author: 20 years old female, Brazil

I was born in Brazil and lived there for almost 8 years before I came to Lebanon. My traumatic story would have to be all the times we got robbed and threatened to be killed by robbers who weren't as...

A Message to My Angel

A Message to My Angel

Author: 19 years old female, Lebanon

The death of a loved one marked my childhood, 5 years have passed, but the trauma still persist until this day. They say that time will make you overcome and get rid of all this sadness, but it only...

Stuck between Them

Stuck between Them

Author: 20 years old female, Lebanon

All along my childhood, my parents were two of the most loving and supporting parents. I loved them to death. I still do. However, through my teenage years, all I used to hear was their screams,...

The Irony of the Brave Face

The Irony of the Brave Face

Author: 19 years old female, Syria

I did not flinch. You see; I am not a fearless person by any measure. I am claustrophobic, hemophobic and I carry some mutated mother-hen gene that renders me rather useless when people I love are in...

Maternal Sacrifice

Maternal Sacrifice

Author: 19 years old male, Lebanon

It happened to be on April 25, 2001 when I was born. That day was supposed to be a happy day for my parents, yet a medical error that could have been prevented ruined that day and caused nerve...

Bloody Teddy Bear

Bloody Teddy Bear

Author: 19 years old female, Syria

All that I wished for was a teddy bear... That day held a bunch of enthralling first times for me. It was my first time to have an official dorm sleepover, feel Beirut's sunlight rays caress the...

The Climb

Author: 20 years old female, Afghanistan

Math has never been easy for me. I struggled with this subject excessively in school; nevertheless, I decided to pursue an economics major and deal with a higher level of mathematics and statistics...

Cartoon Love Gone Wrong

Cartoon Love Gone Wrong

Author: 21 years old, Yemen

Three years ago, I, my elder sister and my friends went to the amusement park. I saw this big Mickey Mouse guy who had all his body covered except his hands. I wanted to take a picture with him and...

Expression Deficiency

Expression Deficiency

Author: 21 years old, Yemen

It was during the coronavirus outbreak; we were all locked in the house with heavy studies. I was among my family yet away from my parents. I was used to going in and out so staying home forcefully...

Inner Anger and Hopelessness

Inner Anger and Hopelessness

Author: 20 years old, Afghanistan

I read on twitter some days ago that a man had killed his wife because she gave birth to a girl not a boy. This news put a very negative effect on me. I was very shocked immediately after reading...

Almost Dead

Author: 26 years old, Lebanon

It felt horrible. Nothing can describe or explain the feeling of a near-death experience, especially the first moments when nothing is clear yet and you do not know what exactly happened and where....

7 Years Away From Home

7 Years Away From Home

Author: 21 years old, Yemen

Leaving my hometown and moving somewhere else was an experience that definitely impacted me mentally. I first started living alone when I went to study in Amsterdam, then to Spain for an exchange...

Bicultural Dilemma

Bicultural Dilemma

Author: 28 years old, Yemen

What is the recipe for long-term happiness? One crucial ingredient cited by many people is closeness in their social relationships. Very happy people have strong and fulfilling relationships. But if...

Home, Away From Home

Home, Away From Home

Author: 21 years old, Yemen

I immigrated to the UK in 2018. At first, it was very nice to be in a new environment, but then I gradually started to feel homesick. I got very lonely and was feeling extremely sad. I realized the...

New Place, New Me

New Place, New Me

Author: 21 years old, Egypt

I was in 2nd grade and obviously not mature yet, but I witnessed leaving my family behind and having to go live somewhere else, a whole new place, new people different language. One of the biggest...

Dystychiphobia

Author: 19 years old, Syria

6 years ago, we made an accident, and I was not driving then. No injuries happened to us, but the people who we hit got pretty injured. I did not scream then, I just cried silently. After that I...

The Suicide Survivor

The Suicide Survivor

Author: 22 years old, Yemen

There was one time, I was in the dorms then I opened the door and saw blood on the floor. I traced the blood and it took me to my friend’s apartment. The moment I saw the room, it was full of blood,...

Slipping Breaks

Slipping Breaks

Author: 22 years old, Yemen

Back in 2019, two of my sisters, three friends of ours, and I went to a trip to the pyramids in Egypt it was around 4-5 AM in the morning. I was driving my father’s friend car, a Kia Cerrito 2015...

طفلة الحرب

طفلة الحرب

الكاتب: علياء، 10سنوات انثى، Yemen

انا طفلة يمنية اسمي علياء، عشت أيام الحرب وكانت الطائرات تقصف مدينتي. وقد كنت اسمع دوي انفجارات واخاف وامي تقول لي لا تخافي هذا عرس. ولكني كنت أحس انها تقول لي هكذا كي لا أخاف فقط لان...

Beautiful Sounds, Become Nightmares

Beautiful Sounds, Become Nightmares

Thunder sounds used to precede a beautiful rainy day; planes engine sounds used to make me run to the garden to say goodbye to the travelers wishing I was with them. However, today these sounds are...

Pink Cloud

Author: FS, Lebanon

I was walking on Bliss Street going to Spinneys after a nap, and all of a sudden I start seeing this huge pinkish orange cloud in the sky, I froze not knowing what is happening. Then, a blast of air...

Broken

Author: Anonymous, Lebanon

I had planned to meet up with a friend in Mar Mikhael around 6pm, however, I got caught up with another friend who I haven’t seen in so long, so I cancelled the plan. I could see the smoke from his...

Beirut kteer bteshbahni

Beirut kteer bteshbahni

Author: Anonymous, Lebanon

When the explosion happened, it was during the summer semester, and we had WhatsApp groups for the classes, so one girl in our WhatsApp group heard the first explosion and she was like “hey guys take...

Memories

Author: M., Lebanon

August 4:

The first thing that came into my mind was the memories I had in Damascus and Aleppo during the war.

I directly thought about the safety of my friends who were in their rooms...

One Last Call

Author: RK, 20 years old female, Lebanon

I started that day with the news that two of my beloved family members are suspecting to have COVID-19, I knew it was not going to be my day the second I opened my eyes. I tried to lift up my spirit...

Hope

Author: Anonymous, 18 years old female, Egypt

I am an international student residing in Tripoli due to my university work. I was supposed to travel back to my family two months ago, but due to the lockdown that Lebanon, my family’s country, was...

A New Chapter

Author: Anonymous, 17 years old female, Lebanon

I am a 17 year old girl and I am Lebanese residing in Lebanon. My story begins when I started suffering from depression when my high school best friend left me after we have been friends for the past...

The 4/8

Author: Anonymous, 19 years old male, Lebanon

I started my day by going to my grandmother’s house which happens to be beside the port. We were sitting in front of the window and while sitting there, we noticed that the building beside us is...

COVID-19 Journey

COVID-19 Journey

Author: 21 years old female, Lebanon

I am a very social girl studying political science in Beirut. Whenever the corona started, my daily activities in the university clubs I am in have been limited and many of my close friends traveled...

An Online Survivor

An Online Survivor

Author: 18 years old female, Lebanon

My first university year started pretty good. I had kind of a good routine and good grades. One semester later, Covid-19 spread all over the world and all my studies shifted online. Due to the safety...

Beirut Trauma

Author: M., 20 years old male, Syria

“Aug 4th Beirut, I was with my friends in our dorm's lounge talking about what kind of projects we are going to work on during our summer break. Suddenly, we hear a very loud noise. The first thing...

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